Have not stopped thinking about that young girl all night. (Read yesterday's post). I keep hearing The Carpenter's music going through my head. I'm sure it's because of what happened to Karen. Karen Carpenter Died in 1983 at the age of 32, due to complications of Anorexia Nervosa. Back then, the treatment for this disorder was only in it' infancy. Karen had gone to get treatment and therapy...but it seems to me that it was more at her friend's and families urging.
The way I understand it, someone made comments about Karen's weight, and Karen read them in an article. She'd been starving herself for several years when she died, and her brother Richard wondered how it was he had not noticed anything was wrong. Even with all that malnutrition, that phenomenal voice of Karen's had never seemed damaged in the least. That it It would seem to me that if a person really wants to hide something, they will. But what if they really are screaming for help the whole time? I think Karen Carpenter probably was. Somehow, I know that young girl is. (The one I saw yesterday). I fell asleep praying for her last night. I woke up and suddenly remembered Jesus asking his disciples if they could pray with him for one hour. :)
This is for anyone, woman, or man, who has a distorted body image...that is, you are harming yourself physically in some way, but in your mind, the end result would be positive. If you are throwing up, or just not eating at all to keep any hint of fat from showing up; if you're downing laxatives (which Karen did) in order to get everything out of your system; if you're taking any drugs that will either make you smaller...or bigger (like steroids); if you're addicted to (food, alcohol, drugs, porn) and you do it in the quiet, but secretly, you're screaming inside, wondering how long you can keep this up. Please do not be afraid to seek help. Talk to someone you trust. See a pastor, join a support group, do some online research and see what's out there. But do what you have to in order to get help, because I would challenge you: It's not losing weight, or getting bigger muscles, or becoming aroused...it's loneliness. It's a deep loneliness that keeps you running back to that "thing" either trying to fill yourself up, or empty yourself of something. Stop (please). Take some deep breaths. Get some good sleep. Get some help. Hang in there my friend!
"Whoever drinks of this water will thirst again, but whoever drinks of the water I give them, will never thirst again, indeed, they shall become a spring of Water welling up to eternal life."
--John 4:13-14
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